MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hahaa, I've been saying that shit all day. Why? Because it's Christmas eve! My oh my, what a long day I've had. Well, quick update: I have a job, yo. I got a job at AMC theatres right by my house. Isn't that fucking crazy? I know I always talked about getting a job, but shit, I never actually really imagined having one. I guess working is okay. Actually, working is gay and I could see why so many people commit suicide every year. It's cause they're stuck working at some job they hate, and they have to do it every day, sleep eat repeat. Now I'm not saying my job is that horrible, I actually LIKE it, but I'm saying that if I were to work at something I'm not totally passionate about, my life WOULD suck. But my job I'm young, my job is pretty cool, and I don't mind it. It's just crazy to think that a job is just responsibility, and anyone who knows me knows that responsibility isn't really my strong point. But I think I do well regardless.
Um, anyway, before I went on that rant about jobs, what I actually wanted to say was that I worked today. And that's why I've had such a long day.

Okay, moving on, so right now it's just my dad, Nancy, and me at home. My brother and my mother are in Mexico, this is the longest I've been away from my mom. I guess it's whatever.

Continuing on the obvious point of today, this year it doesn't really feel like Christmas. But I think that's just me. I'm just not feeling it. I'm not in some Christmas Grinch mood or anything like that, I guess I just don't feel that christmas-y. But I did give a homeless guy two bucks on my way home from work today, so fuck it, that must count for something.

And about Fernando, to be completely honest, I can say he's the reason I'm having a blue Christmas, the reason I'm not quite content. I'm also tired of talking about, of even thinking about it, and it's near impossible for me to shed ONE more tear about it. I've done enough thinking, enough crying, and it's gotten me absolutely nowhere. I'm on a one-sided debate, and let's face it, I can't win. So I admit it fucking sucks, and I'm probably going to mope until the end of this year, but talk about it? I can't do it much longer. Oh if he only knew how often I thought about him, how much I still care about him, but like I said, I'm just a one-sided debate without reason.

I'm out of shit to say, and I'll just end this on a high note:
Have a very merry (blue) Christmas.

Hey
It's been a while..again.
So here I am in some computer class I have to take in order to make up for elective credits
(The same class I created this blog for, and failed. Ironic, isn't it?)
Well,
what can I say.
All is well.
For the most part, I mean.
I'm graduating high school in a couple months, after attending four different high schools,
getting kicked out of two.
I can actually say I made it.
Early graduation too. As opposed to graduating June 2010 as originally planned.

I guess I feel like it's time to grow up.
Not grow up, but take more responsibility and think more about my actions.
I can't treat my life like some crazy teenage frenzy anymore,
I have to think about shit more.
Which means, getting a job, getting ready to attend community college, and stuff.
But I'm hoping I don't have to stop having all my fun.
I love to have good times, which usually involve things adluts find WRONG.
But it's who I am. And I still want to have my cake and eat it too.
There's really no telling how time will change though.

I just want to do this right
and keep myself happy.
By whatever means.

Love life?
Ariel Fernando Lopez.
My babygirl :)

So I've had this blog since I was in the 9th grade. It was a mandatory part of a Technology class I was taking back then. We had to update it with our classwork and such. Once I finished 9th grade, I forgot about the existence of this blog.
Alas, I have rediscovered this blog and I've decided that I'll make an actual use for it. This is now my personal blog. No censorship. No lies. Just me.

Hello, new blog :)
And I promise I won't forget about you this time around.

-What kind of person are you?
Im warmly interested in other people, creative & inspirational. laid back, sensitive, complex, dislikes routine work, values authentic relationships, and wants to be appreciated for who i am.

-What kind of worker are you?
I need a carrer that is more than a job. I need to do something meaningful and perposeful in my life.

-How do you get along with other people?
I dont nkow. The personality test says I prefer to work alone & dobnt get along well with other people, but I dont think thats true about me. I get along fine with most people.

-What kind of jobs are more suited to you personality type?
writer, counseler, teacher, musician..

i did NOT do well im first semester at all..but thats all gonna change in the 2nd semester..i pretty much failed all my classes, except 1 (i got a C in ethnic studies)..i need to get serious about school and stop messing around..

yea well today is thursday..and im sooo happy this week is finally over..ive been having a really bad time lately..i guess everything is okay..except i wanna get out of this school!! like reallllly bad...!! but whatevr..yea my dad is mad at me and i cant go out for like forever cuz some stupid thing that happened on sunday..so that sucks..ok well i have to go..lates.

omg today is friday. finally..im so sick of this school..so yea i cant wait till winter break. i reallly dont want to be in this school anymore!! so yea this weeek was really bad for me cuz i was feeling depressed the whole week. so that sux..today is the basketball game. i think theyre gonna lose, cuz our team sux (no offense). then on saturday i have softball practice. and i dont know what else im gonna do.so yea i guess thats it. theres not much to say in this boring, depressing school.